Tuesday, July 13, 2010

A really ordinary day...sigh

I listened to podcast 5 today while working in the basement and hanging out clothes.  I'm not fond of ear buds for headphones at all.  They keep falling out of my ears.  But I do love listening to the podcasts. 

While I was hanging out clothes I eyed the sad state of my faery garden.  There are weeds hiding my altar, the grass needs mowing and the table has deteriorated due to rain.  I need to paint the table I intend to use in its place (it will go in the mini-fire pit I need to set up and weed the whole yard.  The trip down to Indiana really messed me up.  I'm behind on everything and no energy to get it done.

I started knitting the tunic last night and as the beginning is a simple garter stitch, I made great progress.  Tonight I start the center pattern which is cabled (which I love) and not something I can do mindlessly.  Same with the Tree of Life afghan.  I had planned to listen to another podcast while spinning but I'm tired and I just got a book in from the library on Druidism and Celtic seers.  Not to mention the mystery I'm reading and the biography of Alf Wight (James Herriot.) 

And I haven't been reading Tarot much lately so it wouldn't hurt to give 'er a go tonight as well.  The book is due back at the library Friday but I'm pretty sure I can renew it. 

And I have The Mistress of Spices to watch tonight.  I'm a bit excited about that as I loved the ending of it.

I'm a bit cheesed at myself for still not setting up some kind of routine or schedule to my day.  I have things I want to accomplish spiritually yet I can't seem to motivate myself to get them done.  Or even started.  I have pondered that it might have something to do with all the Bible studies and such that consumed me in fundamentalist Christianity.  But this is so different and so new that I really do want to learn it all.  It's the setting aside time for it that is my problem.

Maybe I'm trying to bite off too big a mouthful.  Maybe I need to start small and accomplish one thing before I try to accomplish everything.

Off to bed to knit and watch my dvd.

4 comments:

  1. I just wanted to leave a note to say I love reading your blog. I understand where your coming from energy wise. I have major energy issues as well that always seem to keep me from getting all the stuff I want done done. At times like that though I just try to listen to what my body is telling me & know that if I stop and give it the time it needs to heal I'll be alright :)

    Plus I always remember my favorite quote - "Don't count your progress of previous days, but rather say: Today I begin anew."

    Oh, and thank you for posting the Druid prayer on your last entry. I'm relatively new to Druidry as well and loving every minute of it. Aren't the OBOD podcasts great? :)

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  2. I read the Mistress of Spices and several other books by the same author. I had no idea it was made into a movie. I'm soooooooooooooo getting this from Netflix.

    Also, I think our Spirituality is on another schedule other than Earthly time. Scheduling Spirituality sounds as appealing to me as scheduling sex. yucks.

    Do what you feel when you feel it, paying attention and being in the moment, and everything you do is Spiritual.

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  3. Thanks, Chibicat. I know I should listen more to my body and not try to push it beyond its limits. My husband and I were just talking about that, how society seems to value people who won't "give in to pain." As if taking care of your pain is a bad thing. I'm going to add that quote to my copybook (I keep a book of quotes and things I like.)

    And yes, OBOD podcasts are great! I'm trying not to listen to too many a day so I can stretch them out though.

    Thanks for commenting. I really appreciate it.

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  4. Inannasstar, sorry for not being clearer. I didn't meant I needed to schedule prayers and rituals. I meant I needed to organize my life so I'm adding things to my daily routine, like studying, researching, setting aside time for creativity...writing, playing piano, etc. I re-read it and I didn't convey exactly what I meant.

    I absolutely agree that the practice of spirituality must be intuitive and done when it the call is there. One of the things I love so much about Paganism is the natural feel to it. I said a while back that spirituality must be as natural as breathing. And that's how I practice my spirituality. But for me to grow spiritually requires a bit of effort on my part. Plus I just love learning all about it. It's new and refreshing, yet somehow old and familiar all at the same time.

    I'm going to have to read The Mistress of Spices now. I don't know how true the movie is to the book but I always love to compare and contrast them. I hope you like the movie. It played out more as a fable and I loved that.

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