Sigh. I can't seem to stay on course and so I've determined that the vegetarian path isn't for me. I will honor the spirit of the animals I eat as Debra suggests because I'm just not going to stop eating meat, I guess. I should know that any time I set upon a diet, it puts stress on me and I'll crave that which I can't have. And gain weight. I did fine for a year by not thinking about food but my doctor and then my mother started nagging me about it and I gained 10 pounds like that.
We worked in the basement again today and I can't help but think that once I get rid of all the junk down there and clean it up, our health will improve a bit. It's moldy and nasty down there from all the flooding and the stuff that gets in the puddles and dissolves into germ warfare. I couldn't wash my hands enough when I got upstairs today. Zach took out 4 big bags of junk and a huge box of cardboard. I managed to clear the pantry a bit but didn't clean it. During the week I'll go down there and wash down the pantry, but I had had enough today.
Order and cleanliness really do affect me spiritually.
Not much else to talk about tonight. I'm hot and sweaty and need to shower and crawl into bed and read some more. I ended up burning the podcasts to cds because I just wasn't bff with Tom's mp3 player. It hated me and I hated it. I'm back to using my portable cd player. It's huge compared to the mp3 player but at least now I have a hard copy. I'll burn all of them so I have them on hand. I can stick them in my dvd player as well and listen to them while I knit in my bedroom. Or spin. I need to get back to that as well.
I have no plans for Lughnasadh yet. I'll probably bake some bread and I would love to make some corn dollies and maybe just a small bonfire in the iron dutch oven (which I have commandeered as my cauldron...it's huge though) and just sit outdoors and watch the garden. Maybe find a story to read to Zach (and Tom maybe?) aloud. I miss doing that now that he's grown up.
Off to make myself human again and an early night.