I'm more and more convinced my path needs to be a solitary one. I don't get the need to make it more complicated than it ought to be. I've run into a few people online who have a need to dictate who can or can't be a Wiccan/Druid/Pagan/etc. They hate eclecticism, think anyone who hasn't studied as much as they have are fluffy bunnies and think it ridiculous that people want to observe a modern version of an ancient religion. Personally one of the things I disliked about Christianity was its insistence on not changing to meet the needs of modern people.
And they take it all too seriously. If someone calls a non-Pagan a muggle it's not because they think Harry Potter is real for pete's sake. It's just a cool figure of speech.
Things like this and people like this drive me back into my hidey-hole where I don't have to see, hear or read it. I spent 50+ years not being a good enough Christian no matter how hard I tried; I'm not going to spend the rest of my life not being a good enough Pagan. So...they can get over it. I'm not playing their game of superiority.
I think any spirituality has to grow and evolve to be relevant. We aren't the same people who lived in huts and were separated by great distances from other villages. We have global communication now. We have medicines and science and even telescopes that can see light years away.
So I will walk the path I think is right for me and I will ignore anyone's attempts to denigrate my choices.
It's just a bit disheartening to find fundies in my new Pagan world but not terribly surprising. Zach and I have talked a few times about what the world would be like today had Christianity never existed. I would like to think of all the advances we would be seeing in regards to modern medicine and science but I suspect the fundies that existed in Christianity, who refused to let the world progress would have found their niche in whatever Pagan religion they chose.
Still, it's nice to fantasize about a world where Pagan groves and temples existed instead of massive cathedrals and where kids weren't shunned for not being a part of the "correct" religion. But the truth is, wars would have been fought over religion and politics and land acquisition even if Christianity never existed.
Sad, but true. The people who made Christianity what it was would have been making another religion what it would have been.
I'm winding down on my stress for the journey. I have pretty much all the errands run and need to start packing and organizing and creating a portable altar to take with me. I probably won't go to church Sunday because Tom will be working on the car and I'll need to get all the sleep I can before I leave. I'm pretty sure I'm going to have to stop a time or two for a nap since I can't make it though the day without one.
I hope the weather holds. I checked on buses just in case and it would take me 21 hours to get to a city an hour away from my parents. With three transfers. I'm so glad my sisters thought that was an acceptable arrangement for me. I doubt either of them have ever taken a bus other than a tour bus in their lives. It's always wonderful when other people decide what's best for you, isn't it?