I will figure out how to talk about the trip down south but I need to cool off a bit first. I am discovering a way to take my anger (and rage) and put it to productive use but my problem is caving in to those who hurt me just for the sake of peace. I need to find the peace without caving in and to channel the anger into a beneficial direction. As odd as it sounds, I need to hang onto the anger because if I let it go without channeling it productively I end up setting myself up for a repeat of history. Especially when the people wielding those knives that end up in my back act like nothing has happened and we're just one big happy family.
I learned a lot on this trip, however painful it was.