Sometimes desire isn't enough

I really am trying to spend less time online so I can accomplish more things in my life.  I spent a great part of the day offline, crocheting and cleaning today but it's just not enough.  I need to limit it even more.  So I'm going to limit my mundane blog to weekdays and this one to 3 times a week.  I'm going to limit my reading of Ravelry and the online newspapers, too.  I don't need to read the comments on every single article or read every thread on every group.  I've pared down the blogs as far as I can pare them so I figure I can keep my time online to about 2 hours a day, which gives me a whole lot of time to do other things.

One of the reasons for this desperate attempt at regaining my life is the podcast I listened to yesterday while cleaning.  Philip Carr-Gomm was discussing OBOD and he said something about the 3 main tenets of Druidry were (and not verbatim)  1) drawing on awen to focus and improve your creativity 2) showing reverence and caring for Nature and 3) seeking Wisdom.  I probably didn't get that exactly as he said it but it occurred to me that these were the things that drew me to Druidry in the first place.  I already had been drawn to the God/Goddesses; I just needed a venue to use for the reverence for them. 

I'm not working on my creativity, or spending time caring for Nature and any wisdom I'm getting at the places I read isn't the kind of wisdom that will really help me much.  So I've got to make a commitment to this.  I can't just absorb it by osmosis; it requires study, nor casual reading.  At least for me.  I'm sure it comes more naturally to some people but I have a lifetime of harmful teachings and theology to overcome.

At any rate, I do intend to stick to it and hopefully use this blog to help keep myself accountable.

But for now, Tom is awake and needs his supper so I'm off to attend to that task.  These 6 day a week, 12+ hour days are wearing him down.