Thursday, March 17, 2011

Feeling more normal...whatever that is

As I said in my other blog, I am a woman possessed.  I did some things in my room last night that helped the flow of both energy and traffic so the room feels open and much better.  Zach said it's got the best energy in the house.

So we tackled his room today.  His depression has prevented him from cleaning...something I completely he's gotten behind.  Plus behind all of his furniture was mold and mildew.  He had cleaned it up last month but didn't get behind the heavy stuff and where he had cleaned had come back a bit.  So we've got two rooms mildew free.

I had a weird dream last night.  I wrote it down and it took four pages so I won't repeat it here, but the main points were that some former fundie friends were behaving in a very calloused way toward me while my older son and I were sick and while I was bedridden and sleeping most of the time, got custody of my son.  I went ape-shit and cursed and told the husband that what he did was so fucking Christ-like and poked him in the chest with my finger.  LOL  What got me the angriest was they had turned their kids and my son against me, calling me lazy and a bad mother.

I'm not sure what the dream means if anything, but I did have a nice chat with my older son last night.  I think he's finally accepted that I'm a Pagan now and doesn't seem as bothered by it.  I could understand his angst about it.

I really, really love A Book of Pagan Prayers.  It has so many beautiful prayers in it for various occasions, some using generic references and some specifically named.  There is also a section on how to pray, how to compose prayers in addition to the many interesting things about the prayers.  It is really satisfying my ritual time.  Tom woke up to some candles lit and mentioned it.  I just said they were from ritual time and he apologized (what for?) and looked embarrassed.  In many ways, I love his embarrassment.  It makes him seem more real.

Well, supper is nearly ready and I'm exhausted but I still have some laundry and a shower to take.  Our safari killed a lot of dust elephants today.


  1. Not only did you kill a lot of dust elephants, quite a few mildew monkeys bit the big one too!

  2. I love it!! Mildew monkeys! I'm totally stealing that next time.