I'm much better today in spite of little sleep. Hoping to get back to reading and studying and developing new rituals and routines. I do much better when my life is organized.
I saw a 4 year old documentary on Pagans in England with Professor Ronald Hutton on it and I got a bit of a crush on him. I first heard him on the Druidcast from OBOD and loved his voice and what he had to say. That he had long hair just clinched it for me. I'm a sucker for long hair on men. Zach used to have hair halfway down his back and is growing it out once again. Tom wears his hair military short, darn it.
I missed out on Full Moon again and a Blue Moon, too. I'm hoping that my habits will soon develop so I am prepared for these events and holy days. I'm still drifting a bit. I do plan on changing my altar to Yule after December 1st. I won't put the Christmas tree up until nearly Christmas. We're going to celebrate since Tom is still a Christian but I won't put any religious ornaments up or any religious decorations. If it means enough to Tom he can put them up.
I'm hoping I can get my house cleaned up so I can smudge it before he gets home. I'm still not terribly comfortable doing rituals around him. I'm glad I have the freedom to practice my religion openly but I don't absolutely trust him not to mock my beliefs. It's a long history that I used to have on my other blog but deleted because I didn't want him to read it and I got to thinking it wasn't entirely appropriate for me to use that blog as a punching bag.
Off to eat supper and then fall into bed and knit some more.