Monday, January 21, 2013

Feeling spiritual again

It's been a long time since I've had this feeling.  I'm excited again about spending time at the altar, talking with the gods, meditating and even reading again.  I hadn't realized how starved I was for this feeling.  I'm not sure if this is a honeymoon period and will wear off later but I do know that I didn't have this exhilaration while I was with the heathen gods.

I figured out that I had been trying to make this a logical decision instead of going with my heart.  My heart isn't the most trustworthy of resources so I left it completely out of the decision-making process.  Obviously I can't do that again.  Still, I'm not throwing myself at the gods like a giddy schoolgirl.  I hope I'm moving forward in a mature, thoughtful manner.

I broke down and bought a book I had thought about last time I was with the Greeks.  Since I've got a month free of Amazon Prime, I've got free 2-day shipping so I should get it Wednesday.  It's Walter Burkert's book on the history of the Greek religion.  The title is escaping me right now but it's one that most Hellenic polytheists use for reference.

When I was setting up my altar, I completely forgot about my black candles since I didn't have any use for them with the heathen gods.  So I got one out last night and had some really good times with the Chthonic gods, Hekate and Persephone in particular.  It was great to connect with them again.  I have a black rose in a vase to represent Persephone and a Chrysanthemum stone I use to represent her, too.  I have my raven pentacle to represent Hekate.  I also have some books on Kindle that I got free about Hekate and Artemis.  I haven't read them yet though.

I'll get a picture of my altar soon.  Apparently the batteries in the camera die out even if you don't have the camera on so I need new batteries.  I have them.  I just haven't put them in the camera yet.

Well, off to finish up my home made chicken noodle soup for supper and then off to bed to knit on the socks for my aunt's relative.

BB

2 comments:

  1. So happy for you. It will ebb and flow like everything else in life, so the honeymoon period will come and go. It's good though, because when you fall in love all over again it feels like the first time.

    Great, now I have that song in my head.

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