Monday, August 13, 2012

Good balance for now

I've been spending more time doing altar things instead of reading; more time focusing on the gods in my daily life instead of studying.  When I knit I watch tv but part of my mind is also on the intentions I knit into the baby things I hope to donate this winter, once I find a place that's not Christian oriented.  I don't want to donate anything through them because there is always a price to their charity:  listening to their gospel presentation and guilt-ridden/fear-mongering laden gospel presentation.  Perhaps not so bad in the more liberal churches, but certainly there in the fundie churches in my neck of the woods.  I don't want to go there at all.  I'll see if the library is doing something this year besides hats, scarves and mittens.  A Pagan charity would be ideal.  Maybe I can check with some Pagan sources.  I'd be willing to pay shipping to get them where they would be well-received.  I'm sure there are plenty of Pagan families who need warm clothes for their children, too.

My altar time has been amazing.  I hadn't realized how much I missed that connection of energy from the gods.  I haven't felt that for months, certainly not since I started drifting away from the Celtic culture.  Sometimes I think it's too intense to endure but I don't want to stop.  I'm sure in time I'll adjust to it and it won't overwhelm me anymore but in the meantime, I'm loving it.

I did do some reading today on the various mythologies in the Celtic realm and find I'm really drawn to the Welsh aspects of the gods.  Not entirely as there are some in the Irish and British myths that really appeal to me, but mostly it's Welsh.  I've had problems for a while feeling connected to Brigid.  Some days I think I am and then I go months without feeling anything at all.  I wonder if I looked into the Welsh aspect, it might help, because I know my aversion to her is because of the Christian adopting of her as a saint.  Not her fault, I know, but it bothers me.  I'll give Brigantia a chance, even though in my mind, she's still Brigid.  Maybe the difference of name will be enough.

I'd love to learn to speak Welsh.  Several months ago I got a course from the library but it was totally in print and no audio at all.  I can look around on the internet to find something audio.  I think the BBC has a free course.

For now, though, I knit, enjoy Nature and spend time connecting with the gods and that's enough for now.


  1. I love that while you are knitting things for donation you are weaving in your positive intentions. That's so magical and full of awesomeness.

    1. Thanks. It's minor magic but I do believe it can have powerful effects. It's the little things that add up to the big things, after all. :)

    2. I wouldn't consider that minor magic. I call it knot magic. I use it a lot. Any intention that comes from the heart is powerful. <3

    3. I hadn't thought about that but it is knot magic when you consider what I do with the materials. Thanks!