Monday, August 6, 2012

Change in the wind again...I hope for the last time

My path has shifted once again, back to where I first started when I left the religion of my birth behind.  I was really trying to fit into Heathenry because I truly did feel the call of the gods but it's just not who I am.  I'm a pacifist, lover of nature and wildlife and I really don't look forward to an end-time battle.  Nor do I really believe there will be one.

In the end, I suppose I'm saying no to the Norse gods.  I appreciate their calling me and inviting me into their world but it's just not something I fit well into.  I tried reading the mythology and found myself not particularly liking the gods of the Norse mythology.  Now, I realize the myths aren't scripture.  They're not who the gods actually are, but just as it's hard for me to separate the Bible from Christianity, I can't seem to separate the Eddas from the Aesir and Vanir.

Oddly, the book I had on Norse mythology also had a section on the Celtic myths and for the first time, I found myself completely won over by them.  I thought how well I could relate to them, to the love of nature and life and their views on the afterlife. How much I enjoyed their stories, after all.

I just hope this is the last switch I make.  I'm really tired of being so undecided, until I decide, and then I end up undecided again.

It's also making my efforts to work magick easier.  I feel like a barrier has been removed although I'm still very much a novice at it.  I got a book on runes but it's from a Norse perspective, which I can get around very easily.  I know some Heathens believe you can't work runes without the Norse gods, but I'm learning to be eclectic and I kind of think the gods of the various pantheons aren't nearly as territorial as we humans are about the accoutrements of our various religions.  Besides, I wonder if my draw to the Norse gods had more to do with the runes than with the gods themselves.

And I have to say that the Animal Oracle cards have spoken to me for the first time in months, so that must be a good sign.  I haven't touched my Tarot in a while but I might get those out tomorrow after my dr appointment. 

I missed Lughnassadh but my favorite festivals are coming up so I am wriggling in anticipation of Samhain and Winter Solstice.  And of course, Mabon is on my birthday eve so...





8 comments:

  1. We missed you too! But Hopefully we'll see you soon :)

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    1. I'm really going to try for the Blue Moon but it depends on whether we get the truck fixed or not. I'm nervous about driving in Madison but I am trying to overcome it. :)

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  2. Samhain and Winter Solstice are my favorite holidays as well :)

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  3. I just typed a 2 paragraph reply and fucking blogger ate it. I will condense.

    I do not focus on one pantheon as that is not opening myself to the thousands of Gods and Goddesses. I read about them as they cross my path and honor each as I see fit. They are all faces of one God and Goddess. My everyday relationship with the divine is not found in a book but rather with connecting to Mother Earths cycles, the animals, magic, nature, recycling and composting and many other Earthly ways of loving the Mother of us all.

    This is my way, not everyone's. No proseletyzing here.

    Wow, that is some Pagan shit.

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    1. I've tried but I just can't seem to pull gods from various pantheons. Not sure why. Possibly because I don't really see them as all faces of one God and Goddess. I'm a pretty hard polytheist so that might explain why I need to focus on one pantheon.

      I do try to focus on my relationship with Nature and magick as well, but I'm just one of those who needs a relationship with the gods as well, I suppose. :)

      Love hearing from you though. I always respect and learn from what you have to say.

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    2. When I retyped my comment after blogger ate it I didn't add that my way is just my way and the beauty of spirituality is the independence of it. I respect your Polytheistic beliefs, I read another blog written by a Polythyistic. It's all good.

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    3. I have never taken anything you've said to be criticism of my path or that your way was superior to mine. I know you would never do that. :)

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