I continue

Finally went to see The Hobbit yesterday.  I hadn't watched much in the way of trailers and such because I wanted the experience to be completely fresh and I was rewarded with an amazing experience.  Plus the theater now has a new sound system that is surround sound.  I kept hearing birds behind me and trolls to the left of me.

It doesn't hurt that Tolkien loved Anglo Saxon history and used a lot of the Northern religions in his books.  It really cheered me up in the midst of some terrible financial news that includes the very distinct probability that my husband's pay is going to go down.  On a paycheck that is already too small and smaller by a significant amount due to our taxes going up.

Amidst that panic the old patterns reared their ugly heads...the questions about what we have done to warrant such bad fortune all the time (including having to pick Tom up in the wee hours this morning because the truck died...and will cost us $500 to fix) and who can I pray to in order to fix it all?  I've calmed down a bit from that and have moved beyond that panic.  And still remain on my path, which amazes me. 

I don't have many answers.  I just keep at it.  I did some reading today, the first since the holidays.  It always helps to get my head inside the knowledge of the gods and runes and magic.  I didn't read as much as I had hoped as I fell asleep after a while.  I hadn't gotten much sleep the past two nights because of the worry and stress (and having gotten woken up to go out in the cold to pick up my husband on a dark country road.)

I just continue.  That's the only way I can think of it.  I continue.  Walking my path, honoring the gods, working harder to be more frugal and making do with what we have.