I'm settling into the Greek path slowly as I'm still struggling with the enormous fatigue that goes along with this stupid diagnosis. You'd think after a year of the fatigue I'd be used to it but I'm not. Now that I know why, I am learning to live with it. Still takes a bit of time to figure it all out though.
But I am very content with this path, especially now that I've worked out all the toxic crap that I had brought into it before. No more all-or-nothing and no more my way or the highway thinking. It makes it much more accessible to me, finding the gods as they are and not as the ancestors viewed them. Or how someone thought the ancestors viewed them. I believe the gods change over time, just as society does. That may or may not be the way others view it and that's fine. Unverified personal gnosis is personal, after all.
Zach is dealing with some changes and some struggles on his path. I'm hoping to help him along this process without trying to take the wheel from him. I know what it's like to have the lacking and longing so I want to help. We're going to do some research tonight as soon as I get the dining room presentable for company tomorrow. At least I hope company is coming. We didn't get the phone call we were supposed to get so I don't know. It's business stuff and not a social call so I'm trying to care about it but as it's Tom's stuff, I'm finding it hard to love having it dumped in my lap.
I've been reading The Iliad at night with my candles lit and incense burning. And some of Hesiod's works as well. I have Burkett's book but I haven't gotten too far into that yet. Still battling concentration problems, probably related to the fatigue. But I'm happy with my rituals so far. I don't need a lot of elaborate design to them.
I have a lot more to say but it will have to wait until tomorrow because I need to get busy working on the dining room and bathroom. I need a maid.
But I am very content with this path, especially now that I've worked out all the toxic crap that I had brought into it before. No more all-or-nothing and no more my way or the highway thinking. It makes it much more accessible to me, finding the gods as they are and not as the ancestors viewed them. Or how someone thought the ancestors viewed them. I believe the gods change over time, just as society does. That may or may not be the way others view it and that's fine. Unverified personal gnosis is personal, after all.
Zach is dealing with some changes and some struggles on his path. I'm hoping to help him along this process without trying to take the wheel from him. I know what it's like to have the lacking and longing so I want to help. We're going to do some research tonight as soon as I get the dining room presentable for company tomorrow. At least I hope company is coming. We didn't get the phone call we were supposed to get so I don't know. It's business stuff and not a social call so I'm trying to care about it but as it's Tom's stuff, I'm finding it hard to love having it dumped in my lap.
I've been reading The Iliad at night with my candles lit and incense burning. And some of Hesiod's works as well. I have Burkett's book but I haven't gotten too far into that yet. Still battling concentration problems, probably related to the fatigue. But I'm happy with my rituals so far. I don't need a lot of elaborate design to them.
I have a lot more to say but it will have to wait until tomorrow because I need to get busy working on the dining room and bathroom. I need a maid.
Ah Kathy.
ReplyDeleteI hope I'm not speaking out of turn but it strikes me that you might find that Hekate has an awful lot to teach you. Hekate called to me when all was uncertain and from interactions with others I think She is a guide to those who need a light to guide the way.
Good luck x
You know...in all my struggles the past few years trying to find a path, Hecate has always seemed to be there but I've never really tried to make a connection with her. I occasionally would reach out to her but then would pull back for some reason. I'm eager to work on a relationship with her now, though. I think she's always been there for me but I didn't realize it.
DeleteThanks!