I'm still doing well here so far aside from the debilitating fatigue and now my occasional sciatica acting up. Spiritually, at least, I'm fine. Physically it's like cascade failure.
I'm spending more time just contemplating the gods and meditating on them instead of reading about them. This is working out very well for me. I feel my relationships growing steadily instead of feeling like I'm battling an insurmountable obstacle. While I haven't focused on a particular deity (I don't do patron gods) I've noticed that I'm not collecting rooster designs all over the place. The rooster seems to represent Hermes and I can attest that he is definitely present in my life. Last night I had a situation with the car on the way home that circumstances prevented us ending up in the back country roads stranded (temporarily)...in the cold and dark. Coincidence? Perhaps. I'm inclined to think the god of travelers was there helping us out.
This feels more organic this time around.
I'm also seeing a definite division between my magical practices and my religious practices. Perhaps that's another area I had been making mistakes in.
Also, while this latest brouhaha in the pagan community...that is, the reference to Wiccanate as a description for those practices that have a Wiccan "flavor" to them...has caused some battle lines to be drawn, in our household, we've found the term beneficial. It has resolved a lot of issues for Zach and has explained a lot to me. Although I do wish pagans would stop the pissing contests. They're behaving much like the christians we had hoped to leave behind.
Life is good here...at least spiritually. With Spring waking up we feel like we're coming back to life as well.
I'm spending more time just contemplating the gods and meditating on them instead of reading about them. This is working out very well for me. I feel my relationships growing steadily instead of feeling like I'm battling an insurmountable obstacle. While I haven't focused on a particular deity (I don't do patron gods) I've noticed that I'm not collecting rooster designs all over the place. The rooster seems to represent Hermes and I can attest that he is definitely present in my life. Last night I had a situation with the car on the way home that circumstances prevented us ending up in the back country roads stranded (temporarily)...in the cold and dark. Coincidence? Perhaps. I'm inclined to think the god of travelers was there helping us out.
This feels more organic this time around.
I'm also seeing a definite division between my magical practices and my religious practices. Perhaps that's another area I had been making mistakes in.
Also, while this latest brouhaha in the pagan community...that is, the reference to Wiccanate as a description for those practices that have a Wiccan "flavor" to them...has caused some battle lines to be drawn, in our household, we've found the term beneficial. It has resolved a lot of issues for Zach and has explained a lot to me. Although I do wish pagans would stop the pissing contests. They're behaving much like the christians we had hoped to leave behind.
Life is good here...at least spiritually. With Spring waking up we feel like we're coming back to life as well.
No comments:
Post a Comment