I've noticed I'm not the only one having trouble deciding my path lately. Some of those out there suffering the same situation are high profile pagans or at least have a lot more experience and readers than I do. Some of the parallels with their situations and mine are a bit scary at times.
Still, I'm trying to go with it and just let it happen. Maybe I'll never settle on a path. Or maybe that path will settle itself and I'll figure it out eventually. For now the Celtic gods are back and I'm feeling a connection I've never felt with them before. This time I'm feeling them return my affection. And it feels pretty damned good. I finally broke down and bought a statue for my altar. I hadn't done it before because I couldn't commit and worried that if I bought a statue, before it even got here, I would second guess myself and no longer want to worship that god. But the one constant that has been in my life for years has been Cernnunos. So I got a statue of him for the altar. No matter what pantheon was in ascendance at the time, he was always present in my life.
It will be here before Samhain, hopefully. I'm also looking into Druidry again. But more a combination of druidry and witchcraft. Not Wicca, but witchcraft. That's something that has also been a constant for me.
We had a flood in the basement over the weekend when the water heater sprung a massive leak so my schedule of study and practice has gone by the wayside until I can clean up the basement a bit. We had managed to acquire a used water heater ten years ago through freecycle but had never gotten around to installing it until we absolutely had to so at least we weren't out tons of money and were able to use a perfectly good albeit outdated water heater. An energy-saver would have been nice but then we would have had two water heaters to put in the landfill instead of one.
I'm trying to be as green as I can.
We're going to have a ritual on Samhain outside using my new fire pit. I'm excited to use it. Although nervous about having a ritual in the backyard where the highway runs up the hill at the back of the property and the next-door neighbors are close enough to see what's going on. But we will do it anyway. I've got nothing to hide, after all. It's not illegal to be pagan.
It's been an exhausting day cleaning up the basement and cooking supper and I'm still doing much more than I'm physically supposed to be doing so I'm going to crash and get some knitting done. There is a knit out at the library on Saturday, knitting for the community, and I've started a scarf and hat set I hope to get done before then. I've got a bag full of baby blankets, baby sweaters and hats and scarves to donate as well.
Still, I'm trying to go with it and just let it happen. Maybe I'll never settle on a path. Or maybe that path will settle itself and I'll figure it out eventually. For now the Celtic gods are back and I'm feeling a connection I've never felt with them before. This time I'm feeling them return my affection. And it feels pretty damned good. I finally broke down and bought a statue for my altar. I hadn't done it before because I couldn't commit and worried that if I bought a statue, before it even got here, I would second guess myself and no longer want to worship that god. But the one constant that has been in my life for years has been Cernnunos. So I got a statue of him for the altar. No matter what pantheon was in ascendance at the time, he was always present in my life.
It will be here before Samhain, hopefully. I'm also looking into Druidry again. But more a combination of druidry and witchcraft. Not Wicca, but witchcraft. That's something that has also been a constant for me.
We had a flood in the basement over the weekend when the water heater sprung a massive leak so my schedule of study and practice has gone by the wayside until I can clean up the basement a bit. We had managed to acquire a used water heater ten years ago through freecycle but had never gotten around to installing it until we absolutely had to so at least we weren't out tons of money and were able to use a perfectly good albeit outdated water heater. An energy-saver would have been nice but then we would have had two water heaters to put in the landfill instead of one.
I'm trying to be as green as I can.
We're going to have a ritual on Samhain outside using my new fire pit. I'm excited to use it. Although nervous about having a ritual in the backyard where the highway runs up the hill at the back of the property and the next-door neighbors are close enough to see what's going on. But we will do it anyway. I've got nothing to hide, after all. It's not illegal to be pagan.
It's been an exhausting day cleaning up the basement and cooking supper and I'm still doing much more than I'm physically supposed to be doing so I'm going to crash and get some knitting done. There is a knit out at the library on Saturday, knitting for the community, and I've started a scarf and hat set I hope to get done before then. I've got a bag full of baby blankets, baby sweaters and hats and scarves to donate as well.
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